Pouring: Emotion + Feeling
To be honest, I don’t really understand myself. I would say most of the time I make decision base on my emotion. When this happen, I just couldn’t think straight and you can’t imagine what silly things I may do. This only happen when I’m totally down or in anger. Believe me; you wouldn’t want to deal with me at that moment. Usually when this happen, it’s noticeable, I would just sit by myself or refused to talk to anyone. As if I am invisible.
Few weeks back during my duty as a trainee in college, something happened and it affected me very much. In fact, I hated that person. We were told to ask signature from this person. In my head, I was yelling “… forget it!!!” I’ve spoken to some of the seniors over the matter. I had lost the enthusiasm of continuing it. Deep down inside, a part of me was broken and it cannot be restored. Only time can heal the wound. I kept hearing voices telling me “… don’t give up, not yet. You’re doing fine, that person can do you no harm. That person is just like a roaring lion with no teeth”
Exam is just a week to go? Why isn’t there a warning? We were told to have 6 weeks of training before the exam and now we only have 5 and a half week? They are not abiding to the agreement. What about those that need that extra half week? Would that make them happier to see them fail? I don’t care. If I happen to fail, I would just kiss it goodbye.
All these did not come to waste because I’ve made the best out of it. There are friends that I can really trust and they are there to help me through. I’m grateful for that. (You know who you are)
** Mood: Warning-Low 4/10 (While writing this)
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7 Comments:
If I have to be mean to knock some sense into you, I will.
Place yourself 10 years ahead.
Where will you be? Presumably working. In an office. With colleagues. 10 years ahead, your colleagues will most likely just be your colleagues. And your boss would likely want to "downsize the workforce" anytime he has the opportunity to. It's a nasty world out there. And trust me, you've barely taken one step.
Right now, your position in the team as a trainee is for you to get used to what you'd expect in the future. Boring ghostings, boring meetings, boring duties, boring everything. But do you really think that things can be more interesting when you're out in the working world? Maybe, more interesting when it's filled with politics, backstabbers, mean bosses...? The list goes on and on. That's definitely not my idea of interesting.
Giving up on all your effort because of one person. If you think your effort wasn't worth it, then let go. No point asking you to stay. But letting go just like that has shown how feeble your spirit is. It's a very minor matter. Yet it has affected you so much. Don't you think the one month plus you spent in the team should be given a little thought. You came so close, just to let go at the end. Fine, if you have lost your enthusiasm, then go. You would be losing the chance to find out it there will be another reason to arise your spirits again.
Think getting half week less than what you're supposed to get is unfair? What about employees who get fired just because the boss didn't like them? Again, it's a cutthroat world out there. You can't expect everything to go your way. Because that will never happen. Only the meanest will rule.
It is ultimately up to you. Because, as I always say - only you know best.
Celine, you do get so affected by the smallest of matters sometimes...
Yes , it's true that blogger anonymous said.... but do think carefully and wisely... even though time is a factor to it... but please dun let this opportunity go jst like that , u do have a long way to go and do keep ur spirit strong.... and holds on to ur will....
nothing would actually stops you unless urself... try give the best and u will surely achieve the goals that you are heading for....
keep up the pace and u will definetely knw where you would be standing .... in the comin years...
cheersss
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You Have Jesus,You Have Everything.Forgive and Forget for The Lord has Forgiven Our Sins.The Lord Even Forgave those who put him on the cross.
Amen.
From Snowstorm.
Thanks, guys, for being supportive and encouraging. :) Much appreciated!
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It is by faith that you have brought yourself this far.
I am proud that you have braved yourself through the trainings and ignorance by some of us.
Remember, this is the ground where you could fail and get up again without much risks. Take the route smartly and you will be fly high and be different later in life... (You should have felt it right now)
Take care and may the Light of The Lord guide your path.
Cheers...
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