Pouring: Emotion + Feeling
To be honest, I don’t really understand myself. I would say most of the time I make decision base on my emotion. When this happen, I just couldn’t think straight and you can’t imagine what silly things I may do. This only happen when I’m totally down or in anger. Believe me; you wouldn’t want to deal with me at that moment. Usually when this happen, it’s noticeable, I would just sit by myself or refused to talk to anyone. As if I am invisible.
Few weeks back during my duty as a trainee in college, something happened and it affected me very much. In fact, I hated that person. We were told to ask signature from this person. In my head, I was yelling “… forget it!!!” I’ve spoken to some of the seniors over the matter. I had lost the enthusiasm of continuing it. Deep down inside, a part of me was broken and it cannot be restored. Only time can heal the wound. I kept hearing voices telling me “… don’t give up, not yet. You’re doing fine, that person can do you no harm. That person is just like a roaring lion with no teeth”
Exam is just a week to go? Why isn’t there a warning? We were told to have 6 weeks of training before the exam and now we only have 5 and a half week? They are not abiding to the agreement. What about those that need that extra half week? Would that make them happier to see them fail? I don’t care. If I happen to fail, I would just kiss it goodbye.
All these did not come to waste because I’ve made the best out of it. There are friends that I can really trust and they are there to help me through. I’m grateful for that. (You know who you are)
** Mood: Warning-Low 4/10 (While writing this)



























