4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails.
1 Corinthians 14:4-8

Have a blessed Valentine’s Day!

Bill Keith came to my college the other day to have a little chat with the students. He is not just a successful fashion designer by also a very inspiring person who have a lot to share. The whole 2 hours of talking was rather inspiring as he said there are so many people who graduate from the same college, same university, all studied the same course but why only very few managed to make it to the top? The problem with us is that, he pointed out, we “MALAYSIA” are by nature, are rather “MALA-S–”. Which I think he does have a point in there. Very often we take things for granted and thinks that opportunities would knock on our door twice. Having to always pushing things around and making unnecessary excuses. But instead, we should do things for ourselves and grab as many opportunities as possible.

Take a competition for example. How many of us look at the price first before entering, or do we let the cost (start up cost) discourage us from giving it a shoot? Well, whatever that is. We should always do it for ourselves and not for others. Because at the end of the day, it is us who are living our own life.

The inspiration I get for the following two (2) pics are, the first pic represent self, as an individual. Having the fire inside one self, be it knowledge or idea or belief. If we hold on to whatever we are believing or know, the fire in us may just die off. Instead, we should share it to others and not keep it to yourself.

By sharing idea or knowledge to others, people would see us someone who is unselfish. May the fire in us shine right through us like in the second pic and may other benefit from it too.

This is the original picture.

I’m not sure what I just said made any sense. But anyway, it’s a “random” thought after all.

BACKSTREET BOYS - What Makes You Different (Makes You Beautiful)

You don’t run with the crowd
You go your own way
You don’t play after dark
You light up my day

Got your own kind of style
That sets you apart
Baby that’s why you capture my heart
I know sometimes you feel
Like you don’t fit in
And this world doesn’t know
What you have within

When I look at you
I see something rare
A rose that can grow anywhere (grow anywhere)
And there’s no one I know that can compare

Chorus:
What makes you different (oh, uh)
Makes you beautiful (oh uh)
What’s there inside you (oh uh)
Shines through to me
In your eyes I see all the love I’ll ever need
(You’re all I need oh girl, girl)
What makes you different makes you beautiful to me (yeah)

You’ve got something so real
You touched me so deep (touched me so deep)
See material things
Don’t matter to me
So come as you are
You’ve got nothing to prove
You won me with all that you do
And I wanna take this chance to say to you

Chorus:
What makes you different (oh, uh)
Makes you beautiful (oh uh)
What’s there inside you (oh uh)
Shines through to me
In your eyes I see all the love I’ll ever need
(You’re all I need oh girl, girl)
What makes you different makes you beautiful to me (yeah)

You don’t know (you don’t know)
How you’ve touched my life (how you touched my life)
Oh there’s so many ways, I just can’t describe (so many)
You taught me what love is supposed to be
It’s all the little things that made you beautiful to me
(So beautiful, oh yeah)

Chorus:
What makes
What makes you different (oh, uh)
Makes you beautiful (beautiful)
What’s there inside you (it shines)
Shines through to me
In your eyes I see all the love I’ll ever need
(You’re all I need oh girl)
What makes you different makes you beautiful to me

Everything in you is beautiful (so beautiful)
Love you give shines right through me (shines to me)
Everything in you is beautiful (oh oh oh oh)
Oh your beautiful to me (to me)

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Have you ever feel like you can never fit in? I do. Just like the lizard in the pic. But it’s alright. No one is the same anyway. We may have the same colour, but no one think alike. And that make you special and unique.

*Rephrase* My bad, the numbers are confusing. Figure changed.

Scenario:
A group of seven (7) friends travel up to Penang for a trip. Four (4) of them book a room to stay overnight. The other three (3) will be leaving the same day. But at one point during the day, all of them will hang out in the hotel room for a while.

In your opinion, is it fair for the three (3) that are not staying to chip in for the room cost?
What do you think? Feel free to comment.

January
1. I took part in MYC’s Veet Stand Out Challenge 2007 and was one of the finalist for the competition.

2. I turned 21st this year. Didn’t really celebrate my birthday but it’s alright.

February
1. It was my first time helping out at The Star Education Fair. It was also the first time APIIT/UCTI put in lots of money for the booths.

2. I met Nick Vivion, an American film maker, during a Panasonic TVC. All of us got sunburned after long hours of shooting under the hot sun.

3. My friend celebrated his 21st birthday at Shogun.

4. I received wonderful gifts on Valentine’s Day.

5. I had Steamboat At Serdang with my college mates.

March
1. I made my first bid online.

2. It was my first time helping out at Facon Education Fair.

3. I spent my Chinese New Year at Malacca.

April
1. I did a Perodua TVC with my friends. It was one of the shortest shoot that I ever had.

2. First time helping out with APIIT Smart School Exhibition. The experience was alright. Didn’t have much to do there compared to Education Fair.

3. I took part in Fashion Show for the first time. It was my first time making a dress on my own and the experience was fulfilling.

May
1. I meet Masterplan during a photo shoot. They were huge!

2. Had another photo shoot with Ringo in her gorgeous Gothic Lolita outfits.

June
1. We welcomed two (2) dogs into our family - a Shih Tzu and a Poodle.

2. Chilled out at Luna Bar with my friends.

3. I was selected among the college student to get interviewed by Nanyang. It was a great opportunity.

4. I did a KFC TVC.

5. I attended the UV Nation at 1-Utama. Was also introduced to Point Blanc by a friend.

July
1. I changed by hair style by cutting and colouring. My hair used to be long and curly. I do miss my long hair. *sob*

2. Saw the advertisements which was shoot by Ferdinand Fong last year on Hilton’s website.

August
1. I trimmed my poodle’s fur.

2. I bought a new bag from Liz Claiborne.

3. I trim my hair shorter again.

September
1. I went up to Genting for a day trip with my classmate.

2. I attended a Patriotic Carnival that was held at Limkokwing University of Creative Technology (LUCT).

October
1. I signed up with PayPerPost.
2. I did another TVC for KFC - Meltz.

3. I helped out at backstage for a bridal show. It was a good experience.

4. I spent a weekend at Cameron Highland with my deares and we visited few places.

5. I did a TVC for Dettol at Summit USJ.

6. I signed up with Smorty.

November
1. I added badminton to my weekly exercise routine.

2. Had a photo shoot with Aaron.

3. I Participated in a hair show that was organised by Toni & Guy.

4. David Copperfield’s show got cancelled so we had to return the tickets and get a refund.

5. I visited True Fitness Outlet at Jaya 33 with my class mates.

6. I lost my ring and found it back.

December
1. Celebrated our 5th Anniversary at Victoria Station.

2. I attended the Kuala Lumpur International Batik (KLIB) showcase.

3. For the first time, APIIT/UCTI is giving out car sticker and calendar.

4. I attended the Xtreme Night 2007.

5. I attended the Black & Bling event organised by Malaysian Today with my college mates.

6. I helped out at Facon Education Fair for the second time.

7. I attended the M-IFW’07 event at KLCC.

8. I worked during Colin’s launch at Sunway Pyramid. Met few celebrities at the launch.

9. It was first time helping out at Nanyang Education Fair.

A friend of mine told me that Capricorns are helpful people. I guess that statement is quite true to a certain extend. In fact, I do like to lend a hand to anyone who needs it but sometimes my helpfulness doesn’t get appreciated. My principal is “always lend a hand whenever you can, who knows you may need it someday“.

Give you few true scenarios:-
Scenario 1:
X asked me to help look for part-time / short term job for X. I practically went high and low to get contacts for X. Okay, X did thank me in advance and told me that X can’t confirm whether X wants the job or not and will get back to me the next day. And the next day, I didn’t hear a single word from X.
What I think:
Even if X have thank me in advance, I would appreciate if X at least informed me about X’s decision. On my side, it’s not very nice to ask someone for a job and yet have to tell people that my friend didn’t give me an answer. It doesn’t look good on my side, you know?

Scenario 2:
Y told me that Y has a project that required my help in term of photography and models’ contact and that Y’s company would pay me a small sum in return for helping out. Few weeks later, Y told me that the job is confirmed and need me to make some arrangement and get models’ profile for Y’s boss to view. I called up my talent agency and request for potential models’ profile. Emailed Y the models’ profile and Y told me that Y’s boss didn’t like the models because the models were flat? Never mind. Few days had passed and Y didn’t get back to me on whether the project will be carried out. I had to call Y to get update on the project status. My talent agency even called me up to get update on status. And I had to tell my agency that my client did not get back to me. I felt so embarrassed.
What I think:
Who cares if the models are flat? Not like Y is shooting for a lingerie advertisement. Further more, this is Y’s project so Y should at least update me on the status because Y is dealing directly with Y’s boss and NOT me.

Scenario 3:
Z told me that Z will be heading to Singapore over a weekend and told me that Z’s friend will be coming down to KL and requested for me help to take care of his friend. I agreed. On that day when his friend supposed to arrived in KL, Z told me that Z will be picking his friend from the airport and will give me a call once Z has pick his friend up. I waited from morning till late evening. I had to call Z and Z told me that Z couldn’t reach his friend and can’t locate his friend whereabouts. And late in the evening, Z finally sms-ed and told me that his friend missed the flight and apologized for it.
What I think:
Okay, I accepted Z’s apologise. But I find it ironic that Z took so long to allocate his friend whereabouts? Do you think I actually believe that Z actually went to the airport and stayed there the whole day? Kind of hard to believe. Well, Z wasted my whole morning and afternoon but luckily I was smart enough to make other plans.

Scenario 4:
My college was looking for student helpers for an education fair. So I send out smses to everyone that I know on my list which I think may be interested. I wrote it as a personal message with a question followed by the details. I practically send out more than 20 smses but only few replied.
What I think:
Come on, at least have the courtesy to reply my sms and at least give me an answer. I had to message some of them online to ask whether they have received my sms or not. Hello? I’m offering an opportunity here. I felt so unappreciated. Next time, I probably want to think twice before forwarding jobs opportunities to anyone. I would have save money on those smses.

** Names have been changed to protect identity.

Some of my friends say I’m just too nice to everyone. Sigh. Maybe I should learn to be a little more selfish.

Last Wednesday, I went to gym and did my usual routine. Went to class and after an hour, I realised that my ring was missing. I started to panic and search every possible place, under the table, the floor. Couldn’t find it. I couldn’t even recall where I last left it, knowing that I have never taken it off my finger when I’m out. Then I told me friend about it and he accompanied me to the gym and my car to search for it. Couldn’t find it either. The whole mood changed completely. I was so worried and depressed. It was a gift from my mum for my so-called 21st birthday. It was something precious to me and nothing else could replace it. I didn’t want anything else but to find it back. Told my mum about it. She wasn’t upset but wasn’t pleased of me being so careless. I told another friend of mine about the incident. I had to cancel our meeting because I wasn’t in the mood to do anything. He told me that if God wants me to find it back, I will surely find it. I was having doubts and disbelieve that it is impossible to be found since the ring is so small.

Called my dearest drove over to accompany later that night, hoping that he could cheer me up. Feeling hopeless, I sob myself to sleep that night after saying my prayer.

Next day, I woke up earlier than usual. Couldn’t really sleep because I was having dream about me searching for my ring. But somehow, I managed to recall where I felt it. I think God must have heard my cry.

I read an overnight massages from my friend on MSN and he told me to go back and search one more time. And so I did. Arrived at the gym at 8am. The ladies’ wasn’t open yet. So went to college instead and wait till 9am. I was practically hocking on the phone and my lecturer told me to put it away. It pissed me off. Can’t blame her because she told us to work on the tutorial. I was just being emotional. At 9, I went back to the gym with my friend to search for it. Again, still no luck but something tells me not to give up hope yet. So I went to ask the management whether he know of anyone around that of what I described to him. He told me that lady is one of the cook. Took me there and asked. To my surprised, the lady was having the ring and she returned it back to me. Words couldn’t describe how I feel. I was so happy and glad to found it back. In return, I gave her a small reward as an appreciation of honesty.

Through this incident, I’ve learn never to underestimate God even though things may seem impossible at times.

Also, I am really glad to have friends who care for me. Thank you.

I was browsing through my MP3 folders the other day and came across a song by Sarah Brightman - What You Never Know. The lyric caught my attention.

It is true that things you never know won’t hurt you. Like people always say, the truth always hurts whether we like it or not. Especially things that been hidden away from us – to protect us. The reasons why people tell lies, it’s because they do not want you to get hurt. This is very true. Many times, don’t you just wish you didn’t know what you know? The truth just haunts you for days or weeks. Made you ponder about it over and over again. Having disbelief of what turned out to a lie after all. Friendship crashes, relationship destroyed.

I personally believe that there’s no harm to be totally honest with someone, even to the point that you may lose him/her as a result of it.

What do you think?

Back in high school, I went out with (A) and (A) told me off when I make a call to another friend when I was with (A). He said it was rude. I didn’t understand, but thought (A) was jealous because (A) used to have feelings for me back then.

Recently, I went out with (B) for dinner. Throughout the whole time I was with (B), (B) was busy making phone calls and replying sms. I sarcastically asked (B) “So busy.”. (B) replied, “It’s urgent. Office matters”. Made me wonder why (B) asked me out for dinner in the first place when (B) had things to do. I thought it was rude. Then I remembered what happened back then when (A) told me off. This time, it was the other way round.

I felt that, even if some problems came up all of the sudden, (B) could have kept the meeting short and send me back so (B) can do his things. (B) also told me he was tired. But NO, I was stuck with (B) until late night. That night, it felt more like me eating out alone and having a stranger sharing the same table as me. Even when we were on our way back, he was still on the phone. We hardly speak.

Is it rude to talk on the phone or sms over dinner? I know some family forbid it during meals.

If we were to go out with a group of friends, it is still acceptable for me but not on a one on one outing. It’s just plain rude! Especially when you’re on the phone the whole time.

Ever since my maid ran away, many things have changed. There’s no one to do the house work, no one to prepare breakfast/lunch/dinner, no one to do the laundry, etc… Well, that can only means that now everyone has to take the responsibility to do a little of work, else mum will have to end up doing everything on her own. Will that be fair for her as a corperate woman who works from 9-5 everyday and have to come home early to do the house work?

Anyway, that’s not the whole point. Me, being the eldest of the family, I have to take up the responsibility to help out in the house work. But is it fair that my brothers (I have two younger brothers) can sit around and be lazy and get away with the house work while I had to do his dirty work?

I had a fight with my youngest brother the other day over house work last week. How silly can that be, you would say. But there’s more towards it.

Situations:

1. Everyone wash up their dishes after each meal. While my youngest brother just leave it in the sink and wait for someone to do it. How hard can it be so wash a plate or cup? I told him to wash his own dishes, he said he will do it but the dishes are left in the sink over until night without touching it. And of course, my mum will end up doing it.
2. Usually, when my youngest brother comes home from school, he would throw his dirty shoes and socks on the floor and wait for maid to pick it up. I told him to put his shoes and socks in place; he just ignored me and continued to play his game.
3. Usually mum would do the laundry, I would hang it at night and my youngest brother is responsible to take down the laundry when he comes back from school. So I told reminded him to do so when he got back, as usual, he ignored me. Then later that evening, it started to rain. I told him to do so. He got pissed and ignored me because he was half way through some games. The raining was getting heaver and he still sits there doing nothing. I had no choice but to unplug the internet cable. Having experience not switching off the modem during heavy rain once, the modem got fried. So, as a result, I had to take in the clothes under the rain as quick as possible. Had to get help from my first younger brother to do so.
4. The toilet that I share with my brothers has the tendency of getting clogged sometimes. Usually when I clogged the toilet, I would clean it up. Because it is too disgusting to ask someone else to clean up your mess. So what happened the other day was, I came home from college late evening. Wanted to take a shower, but at the same time, the toilet bowl was clogged with poo floating in it. What would you do if you were in my shoes? Obviously you would ask him to clean in up, right? So I did. I went to, youngest brother and asked him politely “Did you clog the toilet?” He did not answer me yes or no but looked at me and smile. So it’s obvious that it’s him. So I asked him to clean it up. He smiled at me and told me to go away. I told him to clean it up now because I wanted to use the toilet. He continues to do his own thing, ignoring me, pretending that I was invisible. I asked him again several times politely. He continues to ignore me and asked me to go away. So I got pissed, I yelled at him. He said I don’t have to raise my voice and continues to ask me not to disturb him. That got me really upset. I took his phone and went off. Obviously if the phone is your property, you would react in someway. So he pushed me to get his phone back, I didn’t want to give it to him. I told him to clean the toilet first. I got him upset then. He struggles to get it back, so I threw his phone on the floor. That got him pissed. So he started to beat me up. Knowing that he’s much bigger than I am, physically. He had his way.

Mum was downstairs doing the laundry then. She came to stop us. But he pushed her away and continues to beat me. Mum managed to stop him then and blame me for starting the fight. Was it my wrong at the first place?

Bottom line is, this wouldn’t have happened if he could have said something like “I will clean the toilet later but please leave me alone for now”, instead of ignoring me. How hard can that be to say those words? Of course, I was at wrong to yelled at him and to threw his phone. But as a guy, he shouldn’t be hitting a girl. And being his elder sister, he should have showed some respect. Is getting physical is a way out of any problem, just because knowing that you may be physically stronger than the opponent?

Give you another scenario. When me youngest brother were to yell at my mum. She says nothing. When she asks him something and he doesn’t reply. She says nothing. So does that means it is okay to be rude? If I were him, if no one say anything it, I would think its okay to do so. But if my first younger brother and I were to do that to my mum, she would immediately scold us or say we’re rude. But she doesn’t do that to my youngest brother.

Questions:

1. Why is there favouritism in the family?
2. Is it okay to let your favourite son/daughter have their way most of the time?
3. Is it okay to be rude?
4. What impression would it have given you when a person you’re talking to doesn’t answer you but just ignore you?
5. I asked him politely but he was rude. If he didn’t get on my nerve, I wouldn’t have yelled at him or threaten to take his phone. So who is at wrong in the first place?
6. Having to be the one helping up with the house work most of the time. Mum doesn’t even show any appreciation. If my brother doesn’t do it, my mum would do it herself without saying a word. As a result, my brother managed to run away with things easily. Is that alright?